"Musings and Meanderings"

  A dog is a special place
That implacable piece of our hearts
The binding that tells us forever
Is forever one piece of our hearts
A dog is the friend, the familiar space
Occupies our love and seals that place
Forever their love shines on our spirit and comforts in the fro
Friend to love and cherish, only a dog knows our soul.

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 A mother’s love
Prerequisite to all I’ve learned in this life
Is taught in the home
A beacon of silence, of unconditional nurturing
Lives forever in the heart and never ending
My best teacher; my mother
My best lesson; my daughter
My forever compassion and life altering experience
A mother’s love is eternal, an everlasting love
A generational love 

Beams into our hearts and makes us whole.

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My friend is a beacon

Showers me with light

Showing me direction

And guiding through dark.

My friend is the hornet

Stings me with her fight

Tasking my frustration

Turning all to right.

My friend is the fire

Blue lights up the night

Orange flakes of flicker 

Warming My soul to bright.

My friend is causation

Holding my hand so tight

Walking with me

Facing my biggest fright.

My friend is forever

Never letting me go

Throughout the years

My friend only knows.

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When I’ve had all can handle

And I’m strong because I have to be

Not because I want to be

The strength comes from somewhere

Somewhere I thought I would be

The struggle and the strength

Illusive and unknown

From the depths of my gut

I trudge along

Somewhere in the unknown

Sometimes I wonder

Wonder where it goes

Time to struggle 

Time to not know

Somewhere in the time

I learned to let go.

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Tumbleweed, tumbleweeds

Blowing through my past

Reminding me of desert drifters

Brown sprigs were once grass

Tumbling across my vision

Promising to land

Nothing but blowing

Nothing but sand.

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Dad

The most important voice in my life

Rough and direct

Always listening

Because you are always right

Now I am older

Understanding your ‘why’

Compassion for your life

Directing me with your voice

Never telling me wrong

Ever so right

I listened as a child

To the most important voice in my life.

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Gratitude for the big things

Gratitude for the little things

Giving thanks for all I have

Giving thanks for all I see

Giving thanks in preparation 

For what I am about to receive

Simple to express

Simple to explain

Gratitude in my heart

Means I never complain

Always on the bright side

Sunshine even rain

Giving thanks is extraordinary

Only the humble maintain

The right to graciousness

Found in my heart

Easily grows there

With each positive thought

Giving thanks is simple

Gratitude for what is lost

Gratitude for what is found

You will always find me

Where gratitude abounds.

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  Healing begins with feeling

Forced deep inside

Buried

Ancient memory

Perhaps shame or old desire

Not meant for my tomorrow

Push it further down

Hope it goes away

T

hen a dream

Ignites the fire

Forces me to remember

What I once desired

Outcome not to encourage

Pain and discomfort

Tasting the bile

Of my desire

Stuck in my throat

Reminds me of the pain I sought to absolve

Still here

All the while

A constant companion

Colors my lenses

In all of my interactions

In all of my lessons

Deal with the shame, hurt and guilt

Treat them as friends

Gentle yet alert

Older me can heal

The little girl me 

Who did nothing wrong

But bury her hurt

Love her pain

Love her shame

But, most of all

Help her love

Herself again.

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I know you struggle

To make amends

A daily fortress

Of starting again.

Still you persist

To make it work

A kind word

A gentle touch.

I look in wonder

At your reserve

Inspiring to watch

Even on your last nerve.

Patient and resilient

It all gets done

As you muddle

Through your daily

Awesomeness sprung.

Sleep deprived and struggling

You get it done

I look on in wonder

At the mother and woman

You have become.

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You went through a shit storm

Felt like eternity

Raging against you

Now you are back

A stronger version 

A weathered veteran 

No matter the debris

Whirling about

You trudged forward

Knowing it would end

You have been there

You know how to get through

Calm the storm

Subdue the wind

You have the right attitude

You know it will pass

Your constant companion

Has your back

Even on your knees

Crawling 

All fours got you there.

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He whispers

On my neck

Lips collide

Trembling

As his mouth moves

Slowly

Into the nape

He caught my gasp

Just as I exhaled.

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When I dream of all I desire

My dream begins with a home

Nestled in some trees

A wrap around porch

For you and for me

Wisteria blessing with purple blooms galore

Jasmine in the air

Cat purring on my lap

Lab by my rocking chair

We sit in silence

Gazing at each star

Wind rustles through the trees

Chicadas beckon in one accord

The moon sits not far

Sacred moments

This, me alone

Near my fondest allies

At home

And my wrap around porch

A view all around

The sound of nighttime

Nothing more to expound

Here in my silence

I give thanks for the day

The sweet smell of honeysuckle

Drifting in the airways

Oh the gladness

To know I reside

Only this moment

My wrap around porch to abide.

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